YOU, DAD, GRANDMA, MAMA K , GRANNY BRANDON & UNCLE RICKY too.....
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
Monday, December 29, 2008
I was going to visit Mary.
I'm not sure where it was, but for some reason I thought it was a hospital or jail, but in my dream as I got there, my feeling changed.
I walked into an open room with round tables at one end of it and open space in the middle. It was a warm feeling I got when I entered it. Mary walked over to me with a smile so spiritually warm I couldn't take my eyes off of her. I was taking in every detail of her. She had her old body back. The fit muscular build she had for so many years before she got too skinny. She looked so confident and strong, yet sweet. Her hair was soft, long and blonde. The way you would picture an angels hair. Hers was straight with no bangs just like always. Her complextion was startling soft. So pure! Like a babies new born skin. She had a beutiful baby pink gloss to her lips.
I was looking for the oh so familiar pain I had grown to know for so many years. I was amazed that I couln't see any. I was happy but stunned.... for so many years that she was alive, I saw past her cheerful smile and energy and felt her inner pain. I didn't see any of that in my dream. It was peace I saw. Serenity ~ so Beautiful!! I woke up crying. . . . .
We didn't speak with words, it was as if we spoke telepathically. She guided my gaze with her eyes to a table in the distance that she had walked from. There was a young girl/lady sitting there with her back to us in a sorrowful slump with her head bowed - as if in emotional pain. A pain I felt that was close to home. Mary said "Look Jeni, a girl as beautiful as you - and I'm helping her". Mary was so happy and proud about it and I felt like she was doing what she was meant to do. It was a sign.
Mary is Beautiful, she is very much alive in Spirit,
she is an Angel doing good!
Sunday, December 21, 2008
Friday, December 19, 2008
The Holidays are sad this year without you Mary....
I pulled out some ornaments and came across the one you sent to me December 2004 ~
The year Chad and I got back together! It was so thoughtful of you... you were so happy we were back together you bought a sweet ornament with a fairytale couple in a globe full of snow. You were always so giving and caring like that.
I come across alot of lil Mary gifts..... It's so hard to believe you aren't here anymore.
You were a gift sweet sis and its our memories i will cherish forever!
Remember: "I never saw faults sis, only struggles" ~ you were perfect to me!
I love you! I love you! I love you!
Saturday, December 13, 2008
12-11-08 It snowed for Kelsey & Brett ~ in BEAUMONT, TEXAS!!!!
Sunday, December 7, 2008
What a very special day to celebrate. The world was blessed by his presence for 49 of them and I was blessed with 24 of mine with him! He is still with me in my heart & in spirit.
I know he's not alone today.... He is in Heaven with Our Father, his mom & dad, my precious sister Mary, baby Crystal, his brother Ricky and many many more!
I'm sure everyday is a celebration in Heaven ~ as it should be here. Either way, today's a day a I like to give thanks for my dad's Birthday. Without him, there would be no me.
What a wonderful dad I had! Thank you Dad for teaching me all that you did and encouraging me in all that I did and loving me unconditionally!
Happy Birthday Dad!
Friday, December 5, 2008
I was having a tough time then and learned that trip that you were too. You kept so much hidden for so long sis. You didn't have to. You knew what I was going through and you just loved me through it! I was ready to love you back to happiness too! I wish I could have stopped you from the spiral you were about to endure. You were supposed to follow in my footsteps lil sis. Well, I guess your extremes were multiplied. You gave 150% at everything....
Have I told you lately how much I miss you? Yeah, well ~ i wish i could come up with words that multiplied what i felt. "I miss you" just doesn't seem to cut it.