HaPpY BiRtHdAy BRETT

The days are going by so quickly, the weeks are passing even faster, turning our time apart into months and it will be almost a year til I see you again.

Thinking this brings tears to my eyes, making me wonder if NY is where I should be.

Your growing up so fast sweet nephew! What an incredible little man you are......

I can't begin to tell you how much I love you and how proud I am to be your aunt! Your mommy is always with you cheering your every move!

Happy Birthday on your day and EVERYDAY after!

You deserve so much young Brett and I will always be here for you no matter what!

Cardinal Love for Lisa too.....

I got this e-mail from our lil sis Lisa today:

"Oh, yesterday evening I was at the park with the children and i saw some athletes training...running, sprinting, dragging tires behind them. There was a coach close by so I asked what they were training for. She said "They are triathletes". I thought of Mary immediately and then a red cardinal landed on the ground about 10 feet from me and was looking at them with me :)"

Divine Cardinal Love - thank you Dad!

Today ~ the Day after Fathers Day ~ I was thinking how lucky I was to have had my dad as long as I did. He was such an incredible man full of peace and love! No judgments, only encouragement to be the best we could be and unconditional LOVE!

I was thinking about this day 9 years ago ~ (the day after Fathers day). I had finally had "ENOUGH"! I asked Chad to help me get help. I don't know what it was that made me finally give in. I will admit - I could be very stubborn in my day. I believe there was some divine intervening. I didn't realize this at the time until my cry for help happened again 3 months later in September- (the day after my dad's death day). My mind became clearer and as I thought about those dates, I realized my dad in Heaven had something to do with my cries for Help!

As I was walking Honey, I was thinking about all of this and mentally speaking to my dad, thanking him for still being with me, guiding me, loving me and never leaving my side! All of a sudden out of the sky a beautiful red cardinal flew to the fence straight ahead. He was only 30 feet away and was looking straight at me. Then he decided to get a little closer and flew to the ground only 10 feet away. I just stood there in amazement, wondering if this was for real. Just as I was thinking and talking to my dad ~ my cardinal appears. All of a sudden, there was chirping all around me. I felt like Angels were up in the trees as the little red bird was on the ground staring up at me.

I was touched and comforted by divine love!

The holes in my heart are mending with each touch I receive!

Purple Roses for you Dad

Purple roses grow in heaven,

Lord pick a bunch for me.
Place them in my daddy's arms

and tell him they're from me.
Tell him that I love him

and always miss his smile.
When he turns, place a kiss upon

his cheek & hold him for awhile,
because remembering him is easy,

I do it every day.
But there's an ache in my heart

that will never go away...

HAPPY FATHERS DAY DADDY

I LOVE YOU FOREVER

My sisters

Mary~Jeni~Lisa

Just remembering our wonderful days together as sisters and friends.

I miss those days when my sisters would come visit me in Houston......

I treasure those days and dream of them when I'm feeling down.

It amazes me how life goes on even when someone you loved so much is gone.

I can't stand it that your gone sweet Mary and miss you everyday.

Thank God I have your kids and pictures and memories.....

I'm grateful to have this blog to honor you and cherish you!
You may be gone from us physically, but you will never be forgotten.

I know you are still with us. I'm lucky to see your signs.....

I share them with everyone you love and I pray it helps.

I was blessed with your life and now I'm blessed with your Spirit!

KELSEY - Happy Birthday Sweet Neice

5-30-10

Birds are singing your song
The skies are offering you a cool breeze
Sunshine rays are just for you
A piece of my heart is what you have

So on your Birthday
I look to the heavens
ask our Lord to hear your wishes
The whole world is what you deserve
Full of love, hugs and dreams to come true...
I wish it all for you my sweet neice

Most of all, I give you my heart
The part that gives you peace!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KELSEY GIRL

I love you more than the world my lil angel!

Grief

This is a beautiful poem written by one of my sister Lisa's dear friend Stacy. Lisa sent it to me because she knew I would love it and appreciate it. I did! I do. She wrote it about someone who has experienced more grief than anyone who should. I know she didn't write it about me, but I felt like it was.....

Lord, words I do not have
Prayers I know not how to pray
Answers to hard questions I don't know what to say
Heaven is a long time to wait
To see the one's we love at Heaven's gate.
In the mean time, until that glorious day comes
Renew. Revive. Reveal. Relieve.
Give this woman strength and courage to face another day
To ask for your guidance along the way.
Show her what healing looks like
She longs to encourage others but isn't ready for the mike
Send her chosen people who will walk with her
To share this next season of life.
Free her from sorrow, deliver her from strife.
You are her God, she is your girl
I know your hand is extended
May she take it and twirl.
Dance over her. Sing her a new song.
Time on earth isn't forever
When compared to eternity, reunion won't be long....

For more on Stacy's inspirations: http://showersfrommyheart.blogspot.com/2010/05/grief.html

Honey's Birthday brings joy!

Honeys B-day ~ 12-31-09...
When Chad told me this last night as we sat in the bedroom. My first thought was "Cool, a New Years Birthday!" As my mind computed and thought about this date for a few moments..... I excitedly said out loud, "That was Mary's wedding anniversary"! Hmmmmm!

Just then, Honey stared up at the wedding painting above our bed then started looking all around me ~ very curiously! She never looked at my face, only above my head and around me. It was as if she saw something. She started to jump at me - around me! Her jumping was not her normal affectionate way (all over me). It was all around me. She was strangely calm in her efforts. It was actually very sweet!
Chad just sat there in utter amazement. He said he'd never seen anything like this. I felt a divine spiritual awareness! I felt Marys presence. Chad got chills and felt it too!
A fun peace came over me. This went on for about 10 minutes. I felt like I was blessed with a visit. It was as if Mary was excited that I figured out the connection of Honeys Birthday and the significance of that date to her.

The visit didn't end there.....

Before we went to bed, I looked at the top corner of our bookshelf where "Markelett" the Webkin monkey sits and said to Chad, "Remember Markelett? It's been a while huh?".
(Markelett was the beginning of my connection to Kelsey & Brett after Mary passed away.)

......Chad had goten up at 4:30 a.m. and as he was leaving the bathroom, he saw Markelett on the floor in front of the bookshelf. He was bewildered! Honey can't reach the shelf and Boo has no interest in the stuffed animal.
I woke up 4 hours later to walk Honey and saw this too. I was half asleep, but couldn't believe my eyes. I took Honey outside as I was still in a sleepy, amazed daze. I was standing in the grass pondering these amazing occurrences when up in the sky I heard a song of a bird.
It didn't sound like the 'oh so familiar chirp of my cardinal', but when I looked up to the point of my roof, the brightest red cardinal was singing away!

What a way to end and start my days!!!

Mary - always on my mind and never far away..... how lucky am I?

Playing dress up

These were the days. Woodway Square Memories. 1995-1998! The best times, the best neighborhood, the best apartment. I had my own walk in closet that would fit a twin bed, dresser and nightstand (if I tried) .... hehe! It was fun filling it and even more fun playing dress up with my lil sisters. They would come over and say "Let's go through Jeni's closet".....

Mary in the beautiful cardinal red, me in the powdery blue and

Lisa in the hot to trot black dress with rhinestones!

Mary had on hot red 3" heels to match, I was in my 2 1/2" clear healed with fainted gold straps & Lisa, well....we put her in lower black heels. She is the tall one of us!

Everyone came to our home for all occassions. Every weekend was filled with family and friends fun!

Awwww ~ Woodway Square! So many memories to Cherish....

for all of us!