Thursday, July 31, 2008
MMMM! Baked this cake just for you sweet sister. Nothing fancy, but made it with love.... Chad bought the ingredients today & I baked it tonight when I got home. We will always celebrate you ~ You will never be forgotten! I miss you sis! I spoke to Kelsey today & she told me about the double decker cheese quesadilla's you used to make for them. Sounds good....mmmmm, I'll have some this weekend. Spoke to mom, David & Lisa today too. Alot of people remembered your B-day ~ you will always be celebrated.
Love you! xoxoxoxo Best Friends Forever
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY SWEET MARY!
Our Birthdays are only 6 days apart & I remember sharing our Birthdays together growing up ~ I loved you so much I grew to be happy to share our special days so close to each other. I loved celebrating life with you. I was so proud of you Mary! So full of life & love & energy.... you were contagious. I miss you. I will still celebrate the day you were born - it is a special special day. Although Jesus is gone, we still celebrate his B-day! Gone but not forgotten & only gone physically!
You are in my heart and thoughts always! I'm buying a birdfeeder for me for your b-day and leave black sunflower seeds - the seed of the Cardinal's choice. I'll be watching for you!
Love, your #1 fan,
Saturday, July 26, 2008
When I look at Kelsey & Brett I see you..... not just the physical appearance, but the funniness too. You did a wonderful job in raising them during the most important days of their lives. Don't you worry, we will take over from here. Brian is loving them the way they deserve & JoJo is giving them the stability and discipline the need.
The kids know how much our side of the family loves them. They know that they can always depend on us. We will stay close, don't you worry. We will never forget you. We will keep you alive in our hearts!
Just wanted you to know... okay? You always worried so much, so I am trying to help you.
NO Worries ~ "Worrying is a like a sin ~ it's telling God you don't trust Him".
Monday, July 21, 2008
My sweet sweet sisters - 3 hearts that beat as one!
This picture was the last time the three of us were together, just days before Mary was about to be set free, November 11, 2007.
This picture was the last time Lisa saw Mary when she came to visit March 1, 2008.
I love you dear sisters. When you hurt, I hurt. When your happy, I'm happy. When your scared, I'm scared, but I'm strong for you. When your sad, I'm sad but I'm always here for you. I can feel your feelings between the lines. No words are needed. This is the sister bond that will never go away. I am so proud of you my dear sisters! Always have, always will.
I will cherish you forever....
Saturday, July 19, 2008
As a big sister, I have taken on the responsibility to be the "go to" one & the wise one. In kid days, I was "THE BOSS" - hehe. I love my siblings with all my heart. I couldn't imagine my life without them. Then - one day, my life is without one!! I can't even begin to describe to you the hole i feel in my life. My heart is truly missing a big piece. Who is going to love me the way Mary did? Who am I going to set an example for the way I am for Mary... I loved the way she followed in my footsteps in so many of my ways. I wasn't happy about the footsteps of the progression of our disease. It did give me hope though, that she would overcome just as I have but with a more magnificent result. Mary always went way "ABOVE & BEYOND". That was a quality she possessed. She took it to so many more levels. That is what won her many accomplishments and awards in teaching and racing and learning and cheering. I guess that is what took her out as well. My beautiful lively sister, the extremist. "Everything in moderation"... that is something she just couldn't master.
Well, I am still a big sister and want my lil Lisa & David to know that I am still here and love them just as I do Mary! I pray everyday for wisdom & stregnth to be a power of example, never a preacher or bearer of burdens and to remember that with God's power, through me these things are possible.
We are siblings here and now and FOREVER (forever is even after this life we know on earth).
Friday, July 18, 2008
I LOVE THESE PICTURES BECAUSE MARY SENT THEM TO ME FROM HER PHONE WHEN SHE HAD JUST GOTTEN HOME FROM HER STAY AWAY! SHE WAS SOOOOO HAPPY! WE ALL WERE...Kelsey & Brett ~ My two lil hearts Mary has left me! They are so strong & so loved.... I pray to see them more & more. If I can't move back to Texas because of my life in NYC, I must fly back every few months! I love speaking to Kelsey as often as I do, she is so smart & fun & full of youth yet full of adult like hardships that have gained her a wisdom like no other 12 year old. Brett is sweet. Kisses to cherish & eyes to go right to your soul. I want to be closer. How do I do that when I've got my place in NY? My heart is torn daily. What to do? My heart has always been like this - in a tug of war. I've been feeling really selfish lately living so far away from all those I love. Mary used to cry for me to come home...now if only I did.
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
Well, it looks like this blog is dedicated to Mary ~ my sweet little sister! I wasn't sure what I was going to do when I signed up to make a blog & it has dawned on me today that I should make this my site to keep Mary alive! I think about her everyday as I have even before she died. Now I can write about her to heal.
She is with me wherever I go...in my mind, in my heart and in all that I do. Sometimes the pain of her passing is unbearable - I feel like my heart will shatter in little pieces and then I think about what she has left behind and how precious it all is to me. Kelsey, Brett, Brian, our Momma, our sweet lil sister Lisa, our brother David and everyone else in our extended family, including Laurie ;).
Mary, what a huge present you were to us all! How lucky we were to have you. When they ask that universal question of whether or not you would choose to have and lose over never have so you never feel the loss ~ I would chose HAVE! To have Mary's love & encouragement & spirit in my life for the short time is priceless!
I will cherish every single memory for my entire life!
She fulfilled so many dreams - she married and became a mommy just like she always wanted. She became a teacher just like she always wanted and she was loved and adored just like she was always wanted.....
My dear sister, I am so proud of who you were, all that you overcame and what you became.... I will love you forever!
I really love the picture I'm attaching - it shows you who you are & the wall of family pictures shows where your heart always was!
Sunday, July 13, 2008
One, Two, Three ~ When I close my eyes its you I see!
Four, Five ~ I wish you were still alive!
Six, Seven ~ I know you are in a better place - in Heaven!
Eight, Nine ~ You will always be mine....
Ten ~ I look forward to the day I see you again.
I was thinking of you today sweet sister. Tears filled my eyes and my heart began to ache. I wish I could have saved you, I wish I had more time. I will pray for you and look for your signs. I know you can see me, I know you can feel my loss... just do your best my dear sister to fill the hole in my heart. You've blessed us with your spirit and left us with your children and brought a beautiful friendship to my life through you loss. I love you Mary! Stay with us.... help us, guide us and cheer us with you beautiful smile - we need you!
When you died, you did not die alone.