Sunday, February 26, 2012
Saturday, February 25, 2012
I believe every single person we meet and every single event happens for a reason. What we do with the friendships, interactions and events is up to us. Recognizing our angels and thanking them for their guidance and help will increase our gifts. I believe this based on my own life experience.
The people that have come into my life are just amazing. I'd like to dedicate this post to my new friend Sue D. Found through Little Red Bird. Sue found Little Red Bird Chirping on Medium George Anderson's facebook page. She was guided to my blog here and started reading. On 1/16/12 Sue reached out:
Hi Jen,I happened to come across your blog by finding Little Red Bird on George Anderson's FB page. I absolutely love what you have done for your sister...you can just feel all the love you had for your sister just oozing from what you write and feel. What a beautiful gesture in honor of your sister.
I lost my best friend 10 mths ago to breast cancer; she was like a sister to me and I find a lot of encouragement from Little Red Bird and your blog...so thank you. I know it was no coincidence that I happened to find you. We visit a lot of the same FB pages and I loved the letter you wrote to the judge. What was so strange was that my girlfriend was misdiagnosed; she battled the cancer for ten years and at the end I wanted to write a letter to her doctor, very similar to the same words you wrote to that judge. I would have tried to relate the same kind of message you did, however, my girlfriend requested that I do not write it, so I never did. I felt in instant connection with you..........
Lots of love to you and our loved ones up in heaven xo
SueAlmost everyday since, we have been talking and sharing and being amazed at all the things we have in common. We are helping each other and growing from each other. I know she was a gift from Mary.
One of the most amazing things about our connection is that she is from the exact area that I live now, here on Long Island. She moved to Connecticut not too long ago, but still has family and friends here on the Island. Of the millions of people in this world on facebook, Sue and I connect and are in the same area. That to me is just AMAZING!!!!!!
In one of my readings from Hilliary, Mary came through and said "Connecticut". I never knew what she meant, but Hilliary told me to write it down, that it would make sense later. Hmmmmm ~ I'm wondering if this is it!
Friday, February 24, 2012
An awakening happened for me on so many levels..... Less worry, more love and a sense of knowing!
Messages from Heaven ~ the newest Chicken Soup for the Soul book to come out 2/28/12. How wonderful to know that there are so many stories out there. Stories that have brought love, comfort, confirmations and I'm sure faith, to so many lives. When I heard about this topic for the book and that they were accepting stories I thought, "Oh My ~ which story do I tell?! or do I?! I have my own book to tell!"..... In the end, I decided to put a story together and submit it. Well, fortunately or unfortunately, my submission wasn't one of the 101. That's okay, I'm not sad or worried about it. It was not meant to be. I am beyond grateful that I have my stories and love to share them here.
Here is my own Chicken Soup for the Soul ~ Message from Heaven:
On March 22nd, 2008 my worst nightmare became a reality when I received the tragic news that my younger sister, Mary, had passed away. She was only 35 years old at the time. Mary was an incredibly beautiful and vibrant soul. She was full of life, positive energy, and boundless joy. Her beauty radiated from the depths of her soul and touched everyone around her. She was greatly and intensely loved by all who knew her. Mary and I were powerfully connected and leaned on one another throughout our entire lives. There wasn’t anything that we would not do for each other. We shared an extraordinary bond and a deep love that could not ever be broken.
My world shattered the day my sister left this Earth. I was overcome with grief and horrific pain. I felt a loss that consumed my heart and soul. Every waking moment was filled with agony and despair. I could not believe she was gone and I did not know how to cope. I was truly a broken soul.
Nearly a month after Mary’s passing my grief still overwhelmed me as I cried out for my sister, unable to accept the reality that she was gone. I found it difficult to function and finding the strength to make it through the days was becoming unbearable. Then, I had a dream, a dream that would change my entire world. It would be a dream that would completely turn my life around and nothing would ever be the same. I went to bed as usual, sobbing uncontrollably as I missed my sister, remembering all of the wonderful times we had and love we shared. Before long, as if by a miracle, I fell into a deep and peaceful sleep. It would be the first time since Mary's passing that I would sleep like that.
My sister came to me that night. She looked stunningly beautiful. Her eyes sparkled like stars from the sky, her lips were glossed, and her hair looked as soft as silk. She radiated an incredible glow and truly resembled an angel from Heaven. I was in awe of her and felt a peace and comfort in her presence. The energy that I remember feeling was amazing, nothing that I could justly describe or explain. She moved very close to me until we met face to face. When she finally spoke, her words came out smoothly and softly, comforting me during my time of distress and anguish. She told me not to worry, that she was okay, and that she was helping others. I'll never forget the last of her words when she told me "to start living with joy and love".
I woke up from that dream a changed woman. Although I awoke with tears on my cheeks, they were not tears of sorrow, but rather tears of an overwhelming sense of comfort and joy. The emotions I experienced during and after that dream have not only stayed with me, but have grown stronger as the years have passed.
From then on, I knew that Mary was always with me. Since the night of my dream, extraordinary signs and synchronicities have started to appear. I have been blessed with countless magical occurrences and events that continually amaze me. Many of them have been unique and specific to our relationship, as if she and I were having private conversations. However, Mary's devotion has not stopped with me, but has also been shared with many others as they begin to see and notice her signs of love and faith.
When my sister left this Earth, she left behind two young children, ages 9 and 11. I cherish and adore my sister's children and have taken a very strong interest in their lives since her passing. Sadly, we live across the country from one another, so for one week, every summer, I fly them to my home and we spend quality time together. The first summer after their mother passed away, they arrived on her birthday, and something truly miraculous happened.
I had been living in my home for eight years and continuously had trouble with the light fixture in the bathroom. It had been repaired numerous times in the past to no avail, and when it did work, it would malfunction within a day or two. After years of repair, it was finally left as is and was not given a second thought. Miraculously, the day the kids flew in, on their mother's birthday, that light radiated just as their mother always did. It flawlessly glowed that day, and every single day they were here, all the way up until their departure a week later. When I returned home from dropping them back off at the airport, I found that the light had gone out, and it has not worked since.
I receive signs from my sister all of the time. From Cardinal birds, to orbs in photos, through messages from strangers and friends alike, Mary has been able to communicate and comfort me in truly remarkable ways. I would not expect anything less from such an angelic and compassionate soul. I miss her dearly and her loss pains me, but I no longer travel through life with the burden and despair that I did before. My three and a half year journey since my sister's passing has been filled with miraculous signs and messages that have proven to me that LOVE DOESN’T DIE!
I believe with my whole heart:
"Knowledge is learned and Wisdom is Experienced and the true meaning of life is to develop our soul and help others discover theirs"
Friday, February 17, 2012
What a beautiful surprise to visit mom's home and see that there was a picture of a cardinal on the trailer right next to hers so every time she opens her door the first thing she sees is a beautiful red cardinal smiling at her. How random is that?? NOT :)! To see where mom lives in the sleepy lil beach town and all the people around her was such a comfort. Her landlady who lives across the gravel road was an angel and loves mom like her own. Then I met her friend Eddie who is as sweet on mom as can be... a very special friend. I prayed for someone like him to come into her life and there he was. The weather and beach were so peaceful and serene.
This trip was healing not just for mom, but for me. My heart can rest a bit now, the worries are no more.
Wednesday, February 15, 2012
Hopes come alive and wishes come true. My trip to see my mom was scheduled for a Friday, her heart procedure was scheduled for Thursday, the day before. When I made the plans I figured mom would be okay with her friend Eddie taking her to the hospital and hoping my lil sister Lisa was going to drive down to be with her. Then as the days got closer, it wasn't looking like Lisa could easily make it there on Thursday. She was planning on "making it happen", but it wasn't easy. I had faith that it was going to work out, but I still had a worry. I started to think about the trip into the hospital and mama's fears of the scope they had to do. Then afterwards and the next morning. I was thinking "One of her kids HAS to be there - has to!!". I was starting to feel guilty for not taking that Thursday off.
Here we are just one day before her procedure and I was still hanging onto the hope that Lisa would be able to make it there early. The Cardinals were particularly LOUD this morning. As I was walking my pup in the dark of the early morning, one flew so close to me it almost hit me in the head. Made me giggle as it seemed like it wanted my attention. As I was getting ready for work, I saw that I got a text from my brother David late last night. The text said that he was going to drive to mom tomorrow to be there before and after the surgery, instead of on the weekend. AMAZING ~ MAGICAL! I never mentioned any of my concerns to my brother at all. This was incredible news, it was the angels at work. They heard my prayers, hopes and wishes and made it happen! It was a good thing too. Mom's heart stopped for 28 seconds and they ended up putting in a pacemaker. I knew he needed to be there, Mary knew he needed to be there and I'm so grateful it happened.
The only bad part of him coming up was that meant Mary's kids wouldn't make it to see their Grandma Sara because they would have to drive with their Uncle Dave and they could only go on the weekend. This was sad, but something inside me kept saying, "this isn't really that kind of trip. It's a mom trip to help her rest and recover." I still had some worry that the kids would be mad or disappointed. I prayed they would understand.
The morning only got better. On my way to the train, I felt a nudge to turn on the radio. The song "Hey Soul Sister" started playing on the radio as soon as I turned it on. I felt so warm and fuzzy inside. I was so happy for all these signs. Then I felt Mary speak to me. She told me not to worry that the kids can't make trip ... They will be okay.
What a magical magical morning! I was giggling with joy!!!
All is happening as it should....
Saturday, February 4, 2012
I just bought my tickets to fly to Corpus Christi this month to be with my mom. I told mom this trip was dedicated to her. I know this means a lot to her and that means a lot to me. She has been a mom with so much love for her children and for that I am grateful and will do anything I can to be there for her. I love my mom so much! She is having a catheter abilation for her heart flutter and speedy pulse rate and I want to be there for her in the recovery. Looks like we are ALL going to be there.
Tickets weren't cheap, but for some reason I just didn't care. I didn't worry... I had a faith that this was angel money appearing. Plus my BFF Tina lives in Corpus these days and said she'll pick me up. It's only 20 minutes to Port Aransas... she also mentioned that she works for the Port Home Health and said if mom needed a home nurse to check on her, she can make that happen .... how comforting was that?!
My sister Lisa and her beautiful family will be making the trip from San Antonio to be with us in Port Aransas (aka ~ Port A). YAY! Now all we need is our brother David who lives in Houston and maybe even Kelsey and Brett, all the way from Beaumont..... it's a bit challenging with my family spread throughout Texas EVERYWHERE!!!
I was having a textversation with my lil brother yesterday morning, informing him of all the details. He said he will make it happen and make a trip to be with us. YAY! Now, the creative part comes in where it will take some team effort: Kelsey and Brett live the furthest away from Port A... close to 5 1/2 hours. BUT, since their Uncle Dave is headed to Port A for sure, the kids could hitch a ride with him if they can get from Beaumont to Houston with the help of Grandma Jojo... Kelsey loved that idea and thought it would be awesome to spend that time with Uncle Dave and then to surprise Grandma Sara. That just warms my heart to hear her say that. Those kids need as much family as they can get. (I pray their dad doesn't do what he did last Christmas when Uncle Dave tried to see them ~ say okay, then act like they had something to do when they didn't). David is all for the road trip with the kids.
I was having this textversation with my brother Dave, niece Kelsey and BFF Tina while commuting on the railroad to NYCity to work yesterday morning. I was so happy with all these wonderful connections and loving how it was all working out. I took a deep breath, a smile ran across my face and my heart felt warm. I looked up from my phone and out the window after receiving my last text with my brother: "Whatever I need to do I will ok. I'll be there ok! Promise! Keep me updated I'm here for family. I'll take care of it for sure! And I LOVE YOU AND OUR FAMILY! :)"
I was full of content and bliss. I felt Mary's presence and knew she was happy about all this family connection. Then, at that exact moment that I was feeling this love and looked out the window I saw a big piece of cement wall with the name DAVE spray painted on it! I went from bliss to mind blowing numbness... then I smiled to myself and did a little giggle. What an amazing sign!