A Visit for Lisa

Our sister Lisa text me yesterday:

Hey! Two cardinals were chirping at me today on my run. Running is when i think of Mary. She was cheering me on<:)>

Both times the cardinal was looking directly at me chirping as loud as she could!

Mary Confirms her Love in a Dream

My beautiful soul sister Jen Dio had a dream with my sisters Mary and Lisa in it. What a beautiful sign of Mary confirming to Jen that she is very much a part of our sisterhood and that she loves her too. We don't have to have the same blood to be sisters. Our hearts and souls are somehow connected. Friends are the sisters we are blessed to choose. It took Mary passing away to bring my Sweet Soul Sister (SSS) to us, 3000 miles away. Distance doesn't even matter with the love we have in our hearts for each other!!

"Last night I dreamt that you, Lisa, Mary, and I were all sitting around and chatting it up. We were happy and content. We were talking about life, love, and loss and comforting each other and supporting one another. The twist? Mary was on the other side but the three of us still saw her, heard her, and felt her as if she was here in the flesh. I know her spirit is with you everyday, as if her body and physical self never left the Earth. I really feel like she came to me to share this with you. She is with you, Jeni. I know you know this. ;-) She loves you very much and she's here more than ever, loving you and guiding you on your journey through life. =) I love you my SSS.........."

For My Sister

I was going through my cards from my B~day last month to put away in my Keepsake bin when I decided to re-read the front of my B~day card from my sweet sister Lisa. I must have taken more time to read the words because I felt like it was about the memory of our sister Mary.

From one sister about another sister to a sister!

Somehow its all connected. Mary, Lisa and Me!

(Lisa & Me in Texas the day of Mary's wake)

Angels Among Us

It's so amazing, I had just told my baby sister Lisa that I truly believed that she is an angel on earth and I wanted to dedicate a blogpost to her. And, then I read the second paragraph of Chapter 15 in Mary Soliel's beautiful book "I Can See Clearly Now - How Synchronicity Illuminates your Life", the title of this chapter is "Angels among us".

Here is the paragraph:

"Imagine what it would be like to have a best friend who loves you, maybe even more than you love yourself. Always right at your side, this friend offers constant and unconditional love and support. When you seek success, this friend is your greatest cheerleader. If you act irresponsibly or in a hurtful manner, this friend still loves you even if you don't think you deserve to be loved. When you feel alone, this friend never leaves you. But what if you have this ideal friend without even knowi it? and, because you aren't aware, you don't acknowledge or feel gratitude for what this friend constatly does for you?"

BUT I DO KNOW IT :)! Mary Soliel is talking about angels here and I connect it to my sisters. My sisters HAVE loved me through some of the roughest times in my life. Especially the time when I was lost in life and battling some horrific demons.
My first thought when I read these words was of my sweet sister Mary and how amazingly true these words were to our relationship. I spent some time reflecting on that thought and feeling gratitude that I had an angel for a sister on earth, who continues to be my angel in my life from the heavens. THEN - a lightbulb went off.... "Holey Moley - I have two angels that are my sisters" - how lucky I am! I only thought of Mary first because she was so vocal about being my #1 fan and always cheering me on. Lisa does the same, but in a more reserved and quiet sweet way. My two Angels, very different but yet very much the same! Yes, they both were cheerleaders too - hehe!

Come to think of it, I have many angels! My dad was one, my MOM is one, my brother is even an angel with his unconditional love. I have also been lucky to have friends who have loved me unconditionally for the last 25+ years: Leah, Sallie & Tina!! Since I am naming my angels... CHAD, CHAD, CHAD! He is and continues to be my angel. He has proven his unconditional love to me for the last 17 years of our relationship. His family too - REALLY!!! Charlotte, Anthony, Nancy, Courtney, Brattney, Chris.......

Boy oh boy, I wasn't expecting this blogpost to turn out this way. It started out for Mary and she seemed to whisper these reminders in my ear. Just like Mary, saying its not all about her - she spreads the truth. How fortunate that I can hear! I know there are more as I can tell as I meet them!

So, sweet sister Lisa - I dedicate this blogpost to you! I hope you know that I love you more than words can say!

An Orb in comfort

I just love this picture.

Lisa and I with Mama, comforting each other in our loss. This picture was taken in Houston, during the days of Mary's wake & funeral. So sad we are.
I was looking at this picture a little more closely and can't believe I didn't see this before.... if you look on my arm, you will see a beautiful white orb attached to me. Mary is still with us! She is truly attached to my soul! In my heart and in my mind, she is still here!

Psalm 34:17-18

My sweet sweet lil sis Lisa and her wonderful husband Victor had bought Chad & I a beautiful Bible as a sweet weeding gift! Engraved with our names as one - the first item I received with my name as a wife! So encouraging they are with keeping us connected with the Word!


Well, sneaky lil sis, she knows I will read in my own time and doesn't like to push ~ but she will mention to me a verse to read - one that she thinks is good. Respectfully, I open the Book and find the verse she recommended.

I really liked this one and wanted to share it with you:


Psalms 34: 17-18:

17 The righteous cry out, and the LORD hears them;
he delivers them from all their troubles.

18 The LORD is close to the brokenhearted
and saves those who are crushed in spirit.

Thank you sweet sis for all that you are and all that you do! I hope you know how very much I love you!!!

Keeping Fit

Working out and keeping fit was a religion for Mary. She just loved it and it was contagious. I've been back in the gym! Getting ready for my wedding dress fitting. Chad & I joined a no frills gym in a not so good part of town. LOVE IT!! It's called Spartans. It has everything we need: a punching bag for Chad, a treadmill, elyptical and mats for me. It comes with the owner who is a die hard MMA trainer and automatically takes on the role as your personal trainer whether you ask of not. I really need that extra push these days. This is soooo much a MARY gym. She would love it. All the framed posters of "Determination", "Change" & "Goals"... Hardcore.

Outside he has GIANT tractor & truck tires for some workouts ~ flipping em. Crazy huh? I actually saw a girl flipping them my first day there checking the place out. Don't ask me why, but I was sold. I think it was Mary taking over me. I think of Mary's determination and excitement and drive when I'm running on the treadmill. She is encouraging me! I will owe my new fit wedding shape to her! I love you Mary ~ thanks for staying with me!

What do Angels Wish for?

Lil sis Lisa, Momma Sara & Big sis Jeni

We wish for more Mary, but grateful for the memories...

We wish for a different outcome, but will wait for the treasure in the end...

We wish for the broken hearts to mend, but will have faith your memories will help them mend...

We wish we were all closer in geography, but know our love makes our hearts beat as one...

We wish this life was fair, but know we can make it no matter what, as long as we have each other...

We wish to all be together, but our paths are where they are...

We wish we could see your beautiful smile and feel your cheers, but trust you'll always be near...

We miss you Mary...

I thought of you today, tear by tear. A little pond I made and a mascara smear. It hit me unexpectedly ~ I felt you near!

We love you forever Mary!!!!

Thank you for your LOVE