Saturday, April 23, 2011

Day Before Easter - A Messenger Appears

Today, the day before Easter, I was working on my computer listening to the rain fall outside. I raise my blinds for some morning light. All of a sudden I hear a chirp chirp chirp chirp chirp........ loud, fast and furious. I look out my window and see a beautiful red cardinal in my tree. Soaking wet and just chirping away. It went on for about 5 minutes straight. I had ran out of birdfood earlier in the week and laughed to myself , saying: "He must be yelling at me that he's hungry!

Then, I saw what time it was. 11:11

Then, I realized that today was the day before Easter - 3 years ago, the day before Easter is when Mary died.

WOW! She sent a messenger to me!

Shortly before this incredible moment, my dog Honey stood up from my side, stared at an area near the front door, twisting her lil head and started a slow bark. Nothing was there. Nothing was outside. Now I realize that "Something was there"! This is the same area that one of Chad's friends came into our apt and pointed to saying someone 5' tall was stading there (as his hairs on his neck were standing up) and its the same area that my cat Boo was standing on his back paws mysticly playing with the air (as I was on the phone with an intuitive friend). He has NEVER done that in the 7 years I've had him.

I am so lucky ~ I am so happy ~ I am not alone!

Friday, April 22, 2011

Mary Blog - Forms a Life of its Own..

I started this blog in honor of Mary! It's all in honor of Mary - still - always - forever!
Originally I thought it was going to be a place to post Mary memories or notes to her; a place our family and her friends could cherish her ....

Well, the blog came to life ~ I should have known it would ~ with Mary involved and all. She always brought life wherever she was. Why would my Mary blog be any different?

Each day that passed, I became closer and closer to her children, so I started posting updates of my connections with them. (Afterall they are a part of Mary)

Then I decided this would be an appropriate place to Cherish our dads memory......

Finally: The incredible phenomenons that have occurred since I began this blog, have made their home here too! The cardinals, orbs, signs and synchronicities! They ARE connected to Mary, they began with her....

Mary and the heavens above have changed my world..... have given me a newfound faith in life after life as we know it.... continues to put adventures in my path where I am learning and growing as I explore. The people and interests in my life are being placed here ~ The only thing I'm doing is: being open, listening and enjoying.

So now my blog is still ALL ABOUT MARY, but it goes a little deeper and the branches are in bloom!

Sunday, April 17, 2011

Dad Visit - March 2007 - Signs from Above

I realized that I hadn't written about something pretty significant that actually happened to both Mary and I just days apart and 2000 miles away. March 2007! A sign from above. I have it documented in my journal and even found the letters to and from Mary.....

Mary and I were writing letters to each other for a couple years. I have hundred's of them. There was a time when we couldn't talk to each other over the phone so we wrote....every single day. 2000 miles apart, but always in our hearts!

Mary wrote to me about something that happened to her on Sunday, March 3, 2007. She was in the gymnasium with over 300 girls. One of them decided to stand up and sing "Wind Beneath my Wings" - this is the song that was played at our dad's funeral in 1993. Very significant song. Mary went on to tell me how normally she is able to remove herself from "the situation" when she hears this, but this time was different. She started shaking and crying uncontrollable. She ran to the bathroom to hide from the pain that she was still feeling inside. She went on to write:

I knew Dad was with ME - He was Jeni! I saw Him and I said "Dad take me to be with you, Please!" I swear i saw his face and he said "Not yet - Not yet" he said it twice. how crazy is that?

While that happened to Mary March 3rd, I still hadn't known about this yet because we couldn't call each other at this time. On Wednesday, March 6, 2007 I had my own visit from our dad. I was driving to the train on this morning headed to NYC. All of a sudden out of nowhere I felt my dad's presence in my car with me. Don't ask me how. I just knew. At this point, he has been gone 14 years and in all these years i have never had this happen. I wasn't scared, I wasn't even that shocked for some reason. I felt very comfortable.

He quickly and in a flash reminded me of the things he had taught me such as the power of forgiveness and allowing things to be water under the bridge...He told me he was proud of me for taking care of Mary and everything I was doing was good. He reminded me of how I am his Angel and then I mentally thanked him for being mine. He told me to stay warm, wear my hat and enjoy life today, that I will be appreciated and discovered soon. (He-he.... funny dad - he always said that to me and he always called me his angel.) He went on to tell me a quick little joke. "Life is too short to be so damn serious!"

Yup, that was it! Amazing.... it all happened in a matter of seconds.

I was so excited, I couldn't wait to tell Mary. I wrote her a letter immediately. You can only imagine my surprise that as I was mailing this story to her, I received her letter to me about her visit.

Those were some tough times for Mary and because I loved her so much and did everything I could mentally and physically every single day, they were tough on my heart and soul too. I felt everything she did. It's as if we are twins.... that's how connected I was/am to Mary. Our dad visiting us was a gift from above in a time of need.

We were comforted! Amazed and connected! A sign that we are not alone!!

Saturday, April 16, 2011

Kelsey Synchro

I was talking to my neice Kelsey last night and telling her how wonderful I think she is. She is so wise for her 14 years and sees the world with such positivity. She loves to inspire and help people. She cares so much. With all she has been through with losing her mommy - it just amazes me. After giving her my words of love, she said something that went straight to my heart and tickled it! Her words: "You know Aunt Jeni, I'm so grateful for my family and friends and all the support I have, but I think it's because of you that I am this way... you are my role model"!!
My heart melted!

Shortly after that phone conversation, I received t a text from Kelsey that was so exciting..... Here is the exact text from Kelsey:
:) love ya and that song that was played at moms funeral just came on the tv after one of the movies me & her loved:) 50 first dates:) it was awesome!

Kelsey has recognized her first synchronicity..... She was watching the movie "50 First Dates" (one of her and her mommy's favorite movies!) and immediately following, her mommy's funeral song came on the TV, "I'll be Missing you" ~ by P. Diddy. Mary is still with her.... i've been telling her that and i think she is believing it now with her heart!

Friday, April 8, 2011

Sister Love

I just love this picture of Mary and me!

We look so happy ~ because we were!!

This was the first time she met my Chad and

the first time we were meeting her soon to be husband Brian.

They came through Houston for the meet in 1994!

Mary has such a beautiful glow in this picture..... We both did when we were together. I loved how much we loved each other. Our admiration and respect became stronger as we grew older.... it was great having a best friend related to you. The bond was unconditional. It's like you can't do wrong in the eyes of that loved one! Wow ~ how lucky we were.

Boy do I miss my best friend, my sister Mary!

Friday, April 1, 2011


Kelsey and Brett hanging out at their great grandparents - Mumsies!

They are getting so big and are so fun & funny.....

The Shift

“Thoroughly unprepared, we take the step into the afternoon of life. Worse still, we take this step with the false presupposition that our truths and our ideals will serve us as hitherto. But we cannot live the afternoon of life according to the program of life’s morning, for what was great in the morning will be little at evening and what in the morning was true, at evening will have become a lie.” - Carl Gustav Jung

In this compelling film, Wayne explores the spiritual journey From Ambition to Meaning. The powerful shift from the ego constructs that we’re taught early in life by parents and society—which promote achievement and accumulation—are shown in contrast to a life of Meaning, focused on serving and giving back. Through the intertwined stories of an overachieving businessman, a mother of two seeking her own expression in the world, and a director trying to make a name for himself, this entertaining film not only inspires, but also teaches us how to create a life of Meaning and purpose.