Sunday, September 6, 2009

100% Pure Love

Pure, limitless love ~ this is what Mary gave!

When I was with her or when I spoke to her on the phone or when I read letters from her - it was pure love I felt. I know that may sound corny, but its true. If you know what I am talking about, then you are blessed.
I loved the way she loved me because it was mutual.... she was the star in my world. I had pure admiration for her! Mary was a star that would shine wherever she was ~ her eyes had this amazing sparkle and when she smiled, she would light up the whole room.

I loved it when she would laugh - she had a tendancy to open her mouth in a huge smile so wide you could see her gold fillings. I would tease her & tell her to be careful where she laughed like that... someone may try to steal her teeth. She would stop for a minute to think about what I had just said, realize it wasn't a possibility, say "silly Jeni" and then laugh some more.

Mary was the most beautiful person I've ever known! My sister ~
my best friend and biggest fan!

I miss her so much!

People have asked the question: "Is it better to have had love and lost it or to aviod the pain and never had it at all"? I choose to have had it because love does not leave us, it stays with us locked in our hearts and minds for us to share and remember.....


Kerri said...

We talked to our son's surgeon before he was born and learned how severe his condition might be. We had to prepare ourselves. On the way out of the doctor's office, I told my husband, "I don't know if I can give all my love to our son because what if we don't have him for very long." "I am afraid of getting too close to him." Yes, these words sound very selfish and conditional, but I didn't want to feel the pain of losing a child. Yet, my husband reminded me, "Kerri, we need to love our little boy with everything we have because of the fact that we don't know how long we might have him." Those words woke me up and set me strait. More than anyone, I gave my heart to Joshua. I believed in him more than you could imagine. I cherished all of our moments together....even if they were painful. When we had to turn off the machines and listen to his heart stop beating, I still held so close. I sang songs to him on his way up to Heaven. So, yes, it is sooooo much better to have had love and lose it than to avoid the pain and never have it at all. I also think of all the memories that I had with Mary that I wouldn't trade for my life. She gave me some of my most special qualities. That is how she stays close to my heart each and every day.

Love you,

Jeni said...

That was so beautiful and from the heart Ker bear.... Thank you so much for sharing it! Wow.... You know Joshua is still with you & i'm sure Mary is with him too! We have so many blessings to be thankful for. What's most comforting for me is that we will be together forever with no end ;)! Love you!